Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Waiting for Wednesday, Volume 3, Issue 27

Sometimes, you work so hard for something that, when it becomes within reach, you almost can’t believe that it’s happening. Still, you go about your daily business; your work, your life, your routine.

Everything is, essentially, how it was in the weeks before, but, somehow, different.

Because you know that there’s the possibility for something new, something different. Something that’s been in the back of your mind for almost a decade now. Something that has always seemed too good to ever be true, or possible, or real.

I’ve been living in a weird, surrealistic world for the past month or so, on the cusp of having something happen to me that would have truly been...well, it would have been a dream come true.

Quite literally.

And I worked so hard for it to happen—or, at least, to get to the point where the possibility of it happening was actually tangible—that, when I found out yesterday that it wasn't going to happen...I was just numb.

It’s hard to wrap my head around the fact that the thing—The One Thing—that I got into the industry I'm in for was actually, possibly, maybe, going to happen for me.

It’s been a strange few weeks, let me tell you.

In those weeks, I’ve done my best to alienate pretty much everyone I know. Luckily (ha!) I’ve had so much work to do that staying in the office late and on weekends hasn’t really bothered me all that much.

It’s actually been kind of a welcome distraction.

But now, the thing that I was trying my best to distract my attentions from has become the biggest distraction imaginable. I’m typing this, now, instead of doing actual work. Mostly because I don’t feel like doing actual work right now.

And, yep, you guessed it. Unfortunately, I have to be vague about this and I know it’s probably nonsensical and a little frustrating to read. But I need to get it off my chest, and this blog is the best way for me to do that.

And it's utterly appropriate that I air it out in a Waiting for. So, sorry, folks. No comics talk this time. No, thank you.

I don’t much feel like writing about comics today.

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